Lazily walked the 10 feet to the beach in the dark at 4:30 Tuesday morning. I laid out a lumba (piece of cloth) and Randy and I just sat in the quiet and watched expectantly as light started to peak up above the horizon. I sat in great expectation knowing that God is an extravegant God and LOVES to amaze me. Sitting quietly in the arms of my husband I asked the Lord, “Father, why do you bless us so extravegantly? You gave us so many gifts just in the last 24hrs I can hardly count them all, and I'm sure there are many blessings I didn't even see.”
My heart was quiet for some time as I just sat quietly waiting for an answer. “My daughter, if you think the past 24 hrs where extravagant, what do you call what I did for you on the cross?”
SILENCE.........tears............bright reds and soft blues on the horizon.
“I know in my heart, because of going through very dark moments in the past, that even when I can't SEE or FEEL Your extravagant love, it doesn't mean it's not pouring down on me. For you are the same yesterday, today, and forever. Therefore Your love remains the same.
I truly don't understand the sacrifice you made for me Lord. Why. Why did you do that? Why have you done all these things for me?”
“Because if I didn't love you extravagantly I wouldn't be God.”
“Then be my God. Not because you love me extravagantly but because you know how to love me PERFECTLY.”